i've already tried writing this entry once before, but i think it got too personal for my liking. life has been. melancholic? lately. i dunno, there's just been this fuckass sadness to it recently. i know s' not depression, its more like, the entire blink-182 self titled album but. as a feeling, i guess. schools over, that's the end of freshman year for me. this world feels like its spinning too fast and im stuck just trying to make sense of it all. though, that could be due to many things.
if i had to take a gander it'd be either the rise of fascism or the b12 deficiency getting increasingly worse. both of those would do it. y'know, my mom said i had a career in politics this afternoon. i just laughed in her face, i fucking hate politicians. they're all evil scum trying to get power over the people. i haven't been sleeping nearly as well. i don't feel like myself, everything and anything has become so draining. i really wish i could fuck off to the middle of nowhere, just for a day or two.
if anyone i know is reading this, as tired as i can get, i'll always be available in an emergency. call me anytime [over discord so i can hear it] and i'll pick up and bike my ass over there as soon as i can. don't feel bad about it, i've had friends in the past do really stupid shit. it's the least i can do, anyway.
an album thats been really relatable recently is insomniac by green day. s' been on repeat for at least two weeks, lol. last summer i was really into yellowcard and saves the day, actually. to the point where i was in both of their top 100 listeners by the end of the year. if i had to guess this summer it might be jawbreaker or the starting line. i'm getting really tired, even though its only 1:25 pm where i am, but check out the entire say it like you mean it album by the starting line, maybe also ocean avenue by yellowcard.