ah, i'm back again with my bullshit. i feel a bit lightheaded right now, if i'm being completely honest. which, is just an average tuesday for me at this point. school's been draining again, bout' a month before finals. which y'know seems like a lot, until ya realize that since my days are split up, i really only have 15 days of each class left. i can't really focus, but i felt like doin' this so i'm gonna go for as long as i please. y'know, somethin' that's been pissin' me the fuhk off is that i have all the right code, but my spacehey profile isn't fuhkin uh, like, the code won't work. ticks me off big time, so now some text is different colors and the navigation bar is blue and aughhh!!!
mother's day is tomorrow, not gonna be fun. sensory hell is gonna ensue, hopefully i can hide in the bathroom for at least 20 minutes. i don't really think my parents understand the whole "neurodivergent" thing, they're just like "oh you're just a little awkward!!" and then complain when i don't talk because i can't handle everything. specially' my stepmom, always acts like my issues don't exist. oh you're anemic?? let me yell at you for being tired!! let me drag you to do shit you don't have the energy to do and then get mad when you physically are showing symptoms of fatigue and loss of coordination!
for once in my life, my friends make me feel like i'm not crazy. love those guys (platonically). don't think i could do it without em', wish i could show my appreciation. i guess kandi could do that, but it. i don't think i could really ever pay them back for making me feel accepted, that's invaluable. don't mean to get sappy n' shit, but man, they're awesome. i probably sound somewhat stoned, but i mean it.
i'm gettin' restless, can't stay in one place or position too long. just been a homebody all day, laying in bed and really only comin out for food, but i can't really do much about that. i wanna pet my dog. that little shit is amazing, though then i'd have to socialize and i don't wanna do that. though, she deserves all the pets in the world. i suppose i'm getting a bit delirious , gonna call it quits. check out House is Not My Home by Zebrahead and Ben by Fenix TX.