y'know, emotions are weird. i don't mean that in the usual teenager way or anything though. i don't know anymore, but what i mean is that i'm just too tired to feel anything for too long, or else i just get drained. especially anger and burnout, makes me always tired. i guess what i'm saying is that i need a break from my house, family always drains the shit outta me. i kinda wish i could just crash somewhere uninterrupted and not be just absolutely exhausted all the time. whether it be physically or mentally, i just don't have a lotta energy. and it sucks, cause' i wanna be able to do stuff like a normal person, but NOPE!! chronic fatigue. i'm kinda mad about it, if anything. sorry for the whole rant.
being home is kinda like bein' locked up in a cell, but the key fell down the toilet at least 4 years ago. at least i have comfort in music, so that's something. my parents actually tried to take it away yesterday, didn't work lolol. i totally would just go outside and do somethin' to get away but i don't have the energy, plus i don't feel like gettin' a sunburn. my family is all pretty white, but for some reason im literally 10 shades lighter than all of them, it's strange.